So blessed!

Sometimes there are just moments in life that capture your heart and truly show the essence of how good this life really is. They are moments that you wish you had a video of to tuck away so that you can be sure that you never forget it. I feel like I have been having those moments daily the last few weeks. My sweet baby Zack is almost 2 years old and blows me away each day. With the expansion of his vocabulary and the expression of his personality coming out more and more, I can't help but hug and kiss that boy every single chance that I get. It the last few days, he has been giving me hugs and patting/rubbing my back and saying "nice Mama" and sometimes follows it up with giving me a kiss...completely unprompted by me or anyone else around him. Or when saying goodnight to Daddy tonight over the phone he said "I love you Daddy. I miss you Daddy. Night night." He is simply precious!

I feel amazingly blessed to be able to experience this depth of love. And I AM SO EXCITED to see how God grows and prepares my heart to love another precious baby. Of course the idea of having another baby comes with a huge bag of worries and feelings of insecurity and inadequacy but at this moment I am filled with excitement to experience an even greater depth of love and an even deeper understanding of how God loves me. I cannot wait to have even more moments that melt my heart and take my breath away. As I sit here and feel this precious baby move in my belly I am brought to tears because my God is amazing. And on this Good Friday especially I remember the sacrifice that Jesus made so that I might have life and have it more abundantly. Jesus went to the cross so that I could experience immense joy in each of these precious moments that I get to spend with my family. In Psalms it says, "Children are a gift from God. They are a reward from Him." It is crazy to me that God chooses to reward me with things as wonderful and as precious as my sweet baby boy when I most definitely don't deserve it. But THANK YOU LORD for your sacrifice and your abundant grace, mercy, and love that you have poured out over my life. May my life bring a smile to your face.