One year ago today I had the great honor, privilege, and blessing to be able to hold you in my arms for the very first time. I got to kiss your face, touch your fingers and toes, and snuggle you close to me. I cannot believe it has already been a year! On our way to the hospital last year, I had no idea that I was about to embark on the greatest journey of my entire life. I was about to fall in love with a little boy, and even deeper in love with your Daddy. And, I had no idea that the Fathers love would be lavished upon me in a way that I had never experienced before...because I had never experienced that great depth of love in the way that I was about to experience when loving you.
So it was about 6:15am and Daddy loaded up the car and we were on our way. We stopped at Starbucks for one last coffee date. We sat and chatted about you and how excited/nervous we were for your arrival. Then off to the hospital. The nurses welcomed us and had a special room prepared just for you! The day was filled with great conversations, watching movies, listening to music, and daydreaming about you! It was about 6:30 in the evening that it was finally time to prepare for your arrival...so we did and at 7:03pm on May 3, 2009 we welcomed you into our lives and hearts with tears and such great joy! (Your dad proudly announced 'ITS A BOY' as he caught you.) You were absolutely beautiful! I was speechless with tears running down my face as I gazed at your face. Nana was in the room when you were born and Papa joined us shortly after. Followed by Dr. Dan a few short hours later who annointed your head with oil and prayed over your life. Never in my wildest dreams could I have imagined a more perfect day!
Since that moment that I first held you in my arms, you have not ceased to amaze me, and I have not stopped giving thanks for your precious life. Your smiles, your laugh, your kisses and your snuggles bring tears to my eyes because I am so delighted in who you are. I am so proud to be your mom!!! Just tonight as Daddy and I were putting you to sleep, Daddy was praying for you and you took a break from what you were doing, kissed him, and went back to your business. YOU ARE PRECIOUS and you make my heart smile!
So Zack, on this wonderful day, your 1st Birthday, this is my prayer for you...
Lord, I pray that you would raise Zack up to be a Mighty Man of God and a warrior for your kingdom. That he would love and serve you and love and serve your people and honor and obey us as his parents. And Lord, that you would give us great wisdom to be parents worthy of his love, honor, obedience, and respect! God I pray that Zack would be a man of integrity and great character. That he would be strong and courageous. That he would tenaciously seek you and your will, but that his heart would be tender in the pursuit of your people. Lord, I pray that your grace and mercy would pour out over his life and that he would accept your amazing gift of forgiveness. And please work in our hearts to never take this weight of parenting lightly. Lord, we are raising your precious child. He is not ours, he is a child of the Most High God. You have created every speck of sand on the shore, every star in the sky, and know every hair on his head...he is yours. But thank you so much for giving us the amazing opportunity to be his parents and love him every day of his life. Lord I pray that you would protect him from injury, disease, and illness. Protect his heart from heartache. And Lord, please help me to be his greatest fan and encourager. Before I know it, he will be running down the pathway to elementary school...and then Jr. High...and High School! All too soon I will hear Zachariah David Pentz announced as he walks across the platform and is handed his diploma. Lord, I pray even now for Zack's future spouse. I pray that Zack would lay his life down for her as you did for your church. And on that day, on that alter, you would join them together forever in a union that only you could create. Man, it makes my heart happy to think about the day that Zack will hold his baby and gaze into its face just the way that I did one year ago. God, shape him and form him into the Man of God that you have called him to be.
Isaiah 61:1-3
1 The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me,
because the LORD has anointed me
to preach good news to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim freedom for the captives
and release from darkness for the prisoners,
2 to proclaim the year of the LORD's favor
and the day of vengeance of our God,
to comfort all who mourn,
to bestow on them a crown of beauty
instead of ashes,
the oil of gladness
instead of mourning,
and a garment of praise
instead of a spirit of despair.
Zack, I am so blessed, proud, and honored to be your mom. With sadness I say goodbye the first year of your precious life but with great joy I keep the memories and look forward to the future! I promise to you that I will do my very best to capture each phase of your life - but I will never be able to take enough pictures or video to truly capture the essence of who you are. But, those memories are forever in my heart! You truly amaze me and I am so thankful for you! I love you more than words could ever express and I will spend my life trying to tangibly show you how great my love is for you in hopes that it will give you the smallest peak into the amazing love of Jesus! I love you Zachariah David and Happy 1st Birthday!
Love,
Mom
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